09 Jun 2012
Felt much better when I got back to work, so decided it was all the emotion of the diamond jubilee that made me depressed. Thursday, I was discharged from the South Birmingham Mental Health centre at Spring Road and advised to seek guidance from my General Practitioner in future. Apparently, I am no more a risk to myself, than an average member of the public. The Spring Road centre is being closed down and patients transferred to Ten Acres, elsewhere in Birmingham.
05 Jun 2012
I'm blogging about this in the hope it will settle me down, without the need for further medication. After all, a problem shared is a problem halved. With regards to this recent episode, I haven't really told my family or discussed it in depth with my partner.
Last year, I was diagnosed with type II bipolar affect disorder, also know as manic/depressive disorder. It didn't surprise anyone, least of all me. But, it was nice to finally put a name to a mental health condition that has been damaging me and those around me, for years. I have the "happy high" version, also know as hypomania, which means I sometimes appear as highly outgoing, flirtatious and competitive.
If I sleep, eat and avoid stimulants/depressants, my condition it is manageable; 8 hours in bed, 3 meals a day and limited caffeine/alcohol and I operate as normal. I haven't been doing this properly recently, so I'm suffering a little. But unusually for me, I'm suffering with depression more then hypomania at the moment. I don't want to do anything, see anyone, go out or smile. When people ask if I'm ok, I say yes. I'm lying to myself and others.
The annoying thing is, I feel its affecting my work, which is frustrating because I'm working on an amazing project at the moment.
So, I'm off for a walk to clear my head. I may be some time...